As I was driving back to Farmington my muffler broke off. At this point I honestly can't help but laugh at the stories this car has given me. Upon asking an elderly man if he had a bungee cord he ended up offering to help. I couldn't help but laugh, he had a roll of toilet paper in his shirt pocket. He drove back home and returned with tools. As I began to assist him cutting mechanic wire as we both looked under my car we spoke of his daughter and what he does for a living. We spoke about school and life and how thankful I was he showed up. But then it got even better he stated, "You girls must have thought I was crazy, carrying toilet paper on me." But anyone who knows me well know I always have toilet paper in my car! Though I was frustrated and fed up because it literally has felt like I'm just waiting for the next thing to "fall apart" and then it literally happens. It was as though God was saying, "I've got You, even when you think I don't. Even if takes an elderly man saving you on the side of the road who also believes in toilet paper to get your attention." He works in such ways, ways that always seem to catch me off guard.
At first I gave my life to God during a time of deep grief. I needed a reason to believe there was something bigger and stronger than the pain I was feeling. As time went on I continued in my "faith." When times were good I praised Him. In times of pain I questioned him, yet I never truly felt the same as the night I first surrendered to Him. It seemed through the ups and downs I began to slowly drift away. It wasn't util I stepped out of my comfort zone and saw how others all around the world were worshipping the same God that I began to question my faith. My seemingly solid faith. It seemed their priorities were every different than mine. When I struggled to go to church once a week, they managed to go every night. When we were called to open our bibles, I flipped to the table of contents while others were already finished reciting the verse. Their commitment was far greater than mine. Their willingness to surrender came with willing hearts. How ...

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